Leaning...

mommy is craving "dduk" these days...

I've been doing some sober reflection this morning and I've realized that over the last few days I've strayed from the original purpose of this blog - which is to share prayer requests for my wife and to also share what the Lord has been teaching us in and through this trial - for His glory.  I'm not a theologian (nor do I play one on t.v.) and so I'm going to try not to opine on topics I know little about (e.g. racism).  I'll keep posting about our "love story" but that will probably be the extent of my attempts at comedy.

That said, Kim and I are about to head out to get her Nuelasta shot now. This one has caused her problems and so your prayers would be appreciated. She is still having significant headaches when upright due to the spinal tap. It's been a tough few days. To be honest, sometimes I pray for healing - but then the Lord reminds me that physical healing is not even what we ultimately need - but a deeper sense of Jesus and His presence in our lives.

When Kim is hurting I've found myself naturally leaning on the doctors advice, the medicines, the treatment, anything and everything...except God. This is true of other hardships in my life to - I tend to lean on my instincts. I lean on my past experiences or education. I lean on the advice of others. In essence, I lean on my "own understanding". Sadly, often it's not until all else fails that I find myself forced to lean on the Lord. I came across this profound quote from Joni Eareckson Tada who has been a quadriplegic (from a diving accident) much of her life. She said:

"I have learned that the weaker I am, the more I lean on God; and the more I lean on God, the stronger I discover Him to be."

Amen. I believe much of the Christian journey is simply learning how to "lean". Leaning on His truth. Leaning on His presence. Leaning on Him. And it's in this leaning that we discover our pathetic weakness...and His profound strength. May we lean on the "everlasting arms of love" and discover His strength today.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not in your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6

In His Grace,
Peter & Kim