Friday, January 13, 2012

Look Out Cancer...Here We Come!

Please read to bottom and see one small request from us. Thank you for loving on us and for your prayers! 

We were praying for a definitive answer and now we have one. As the doctors suspected all along, it's cancer - specifically "Diffuse Large B-Cell Lymphoma".  This would explain all the other problems. The fluid building around Kim's heart. The large ulcer in her stomach. The chronic coughing. All due to this cancer. We are starting an aggressive chemotherapy (R-CHOP) this afternoon. It's considered to be in Stage IV because their are masses on the stomach and pancreas but this is still a very treatable cancer. When the oncologist sat down and gave us the news yesterday he said the cure rate is probably 50-70%. The nurse then came in to basically console Kim but to be honest between the three of us - she was the only one crying.

Please pray that the cancer would respond quickly and completely to the treatment.
These next few weeks are crucial because it will quickly determine whether the treatment is working, and when the cancer cells are destroyed they release toxins into the body which creates other potential problems. There is also the risk of infection since Kim's white blood cell count will be low after her sessions - not to mention nausea and fatigue.

Thanksgiving 2011
Please pray that she would be protected from any infections or complications to the treatment. The chemotherapy will be done in 6 sessions separated every 3 weeks - assuming her body responds to it. So the next four months there will be ups and downs, and so while I know so many of you are eager to see her and talk to her when she leaves the hospital, I'm still going to have to play "bad cop", "gatekeeper", "that jerk for a husband" - whatever you want to call it and put limits on Kim catching up with 3,000 of her closest friends while she's in treatment. She should be more available than she is now but if you have 50 well-meaning friends visiting a week I doubt Kim will be able to focus on getting better. I'm sure you all get it.

My brother-in-law Ken who is a doctor told me last night that the doctors really feared for Kim's life. When we came in last Friday night she had "cardiac tamponade" which meant that her heart was under so much pressure (from the pericardial fluid buildup) that it was beating irregularly and could have massively failed at any moment. This is the same fluid that spewed out of Jesus' side when he was speared on the cross and comes when the heart is under intense stress. Honestly, the Lord could have taken her home then - but He chose not to. God has a plan and purpose for all this and we are eager to watch it unfold.

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." -Psalm 73:26

-Please pray that we would walk by faith and not by sight. 
-Please pray that His strength would be made perfect in our weakness.
-Please pray that God would be glorified by Jesus shining through us, as we journey into the unknown. 

We did not choose cancer. Cancer chose us. But more importantly God has chosen us to walk through this trial and He has already promised that He will not give us what we cannot bear.

In case you're wondering, Kim is probably going to lose her hair in about 3 weeks, and like any normal person (even males) she is pretty bummed about that. Who wouldn't be? She's  also concerned about how the kids will react. That said, it will begin to grow back shortly after the entire treatment is completed and the doc said it may even come back more curly. (Yes!! I knew there was a reason why I told her I liked her hair when she put it in curls!) My dad used to tell me "If you stare at a rose long enough, it's beauty fades." In other words, don't marry someone because they're only beautiful on the outside - the inside is what matters. I'd say I did pretty well. Cancer may rob Kim of her hair, but it can never rob her of her beauty. I've already told her that I'm shaving my head bald too. There is no way I'm letting her have all the fun by herself.

I know so many (including us) were praying for a miraculous and immediate healing, but I want to share this. On Tuesday night, I was reading our Children's Bible with the kids before putting them to bed. We've been reading through it in order and we just happened to be on the story of Lazarus. It was perfect because the kids had just seen mommy the night before and they wanted mommy home and wanted God to heal her now. But if you remember the story, Jesus kind of drags his feet and waits 4 days after Lazarus dies before he finally arrives in town even though he was earnestly beckoned by Lazarus' sisters Mary and Martha. It was a perfect word for them - we talked about how God may come later than we may like, but He always comes on time. Well, the very next morning, a friend shot Kim and me this email:

"This verse has been coming to my mind as I have been praying and I wanted to share it with you. John 11:40 "Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?" We will continue to pray for a miracle and that the Lord will be your strength so that your faith will not fail!"

This verse comes straight from the exact same story I read with the kids the night before - Jesus and Lazarus in John 11. I felt a great peace at that moment that even if our healing may come later than we may like, I know it will come in His perfect time.

"20 Minutes of Hell"
If you recall in my very first post in this blog - last Sunday night after the nurse called me crying and saying "You need to come to the" - for those torturous 20 minutes I thought I had lost Kim. We both now affectionately refer to it as my "20 minutes of Hell". Some of you were upset this happened but honestly, this was God's gift to me. Cancer doesn't seem so daunting when you already thought you lost the love of your life. I now see that every new day that we can wake up, breathe, eat, work and smile is truly a gift from God.


As I've said, we have been blown away by all the love and support of our family and friends. The emails, notes, verses, songs, tears, testimonies....all of it. I heard the Care Calendar filled up at lightning speed and I know so many of you are dying to help in some way - big or small. So a thought just came to me. I know literally hundreds of you have shared something from God's Word to us - either a specific verse or chapter the Lord had given you during a great trial or has given you to give to us - or even just a favorite memory verse. These have been so precious to us. So here is one specific way in which you could serve us. Please drop down to the very bottom of this post and click on the "Comments" link (right below the video) and a pop-up box will appear. Please type (or re-type) in your Word for us or if easier copy and paste in from Bible I know so many of you have done this already, but I'm asking you to do it again - all here in one place for two reasons: one, it will give us one centralized place to read these (so many are already buried deep in our gmail accounts) and two, I truly believe it will minister to others and not just us. Feel free to post your comment anonymously if you prefer. It would be even better if you could provide a one or two sentence summary as to why this verse/chapter was chosen but I'll leave that up to you. Kim and I are going to read each of these comments/verses out loud throughout the course of her chemotherapy. We have a long road ahead of us - please serve us in this small way in addition to your continued prayers. I truly believe God's Word is man's greatest need (Matt 4:4) and will heal in ways that drugs and medicine never can.

Well, if you made it this far you truly are our friend, or you're probably wondering "does Peter ever stop writing"? To be honest, I haven't been able to sleep for more than 4 hours a night. I am physically drained, but sorting out my thoughts and sharing them with you has been cathartic for both me and Kim.

Now that we have what appears to be a final diagnosis these updates will likely be less frequent now. If you don't want the hassle of having to check this site all the time, I'd encourage you to enter your email address in the blank field the very top of this page and click on Submit and this will ensure you get updates as they come. Let me know if it's not working for some reason.

To close on a cheery note, I leave you with this video for Kim I made on our 9 year anniversary about a year and a half ago and I watched it again early this morning. There will be more happy videos like this to come. By the grace of God...I am sure of it.

In His grace and for His glory,

Peter & Kim


  1. [6] In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, [7] so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. [8] Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, [9] obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
    (1 Peter 1:6-9 ESV)

    God Bless you for your faithfulness and hope in Him as you go through this trial. It is a truly a blessing and inspiration to see the hope that shines through in this dark circumstance.

  2. Isaiah 41:10
    fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

    I sang this song in worship Tuesday night and it's been on my lips all week. I think of Kim when I sing it...
    O The Love of My Redeemer
    Highest heights or darkest deep

    Be there pain or poverty

    There is nothing that can keep

    My Redeemer’s love from me

    All alone though I may feel

    All the world my enemy

    Still there’s no one that can steal

    My Redeemer’s love from me

    Praying diligently for you, Kim, my dear sister in the Lord.

  3. John 10:10
    The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

    Proverbs 4:20-22
    My son, pay attention to what I say; turn your ear to my words.
    Do not let them out of your sight,
    keep them within your heart;
    for they are life to those who find them and health to one’s whole body.

    Isaiah 53:4-5
    Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering,yet we considered him punished by God stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions,he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
    and by his wounds we are healed.

    1 Peter 2:24
    “He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.”

    Romans 8:11
    And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of his Spirit who lives in you.

    Matthew 8:2–3
    A man with leprosy came and knelt before him and said, “Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean.” Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. “I am willing,” he said. “Be clean!” Immediately he was cleansed of his leprosy

    Psalms 103:1-5
    Praise the LORD, my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the LORD, my soul,
    and forget not all his benefits—
    who forgives all your sins
    and heals all your diseases,
    who redeems your life from the pit
    and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

    Matthew 15:30
    Great crowds came to him, bringing the lame, the blind, the crippled, the mute and many others, and laid them at his feet; and he healed them.

    Mark 10:49-52
    Jesus stopped and said, “Call him.” So they called to the blind man, “Cheer up! On your feet! He’s calling you.” Throwing his cloak aside, he jumped to his feet and came to Jesus. “What do you want me to do for you?” Jesus asked him. The blind man said, “Rabbi, I want to see.” “Go,” said Jesus, “your faith has healed you.” Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus along the road.

    Psalm 91:16
    With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”

    Lord, we lift up Peter and Kim to you. We thank You that You are and will be with them throughout their trial from start to victorious finish. We thank you that You are their rock, their fortress and their deliverer. We thank You that You are not only able to heal, but that You are willing. We thank You that when You died on the cross for us, your body was scourged and broken so that our bodies can be made whole. We ask for complete healing for Kim's cancer, we ask for her health to be renewed, and we believe that we have already received it. We rest in Your finished work. In Jesus' name, Amen!

  4. "The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him" Nahum 1:7 (NIV 1984)

  5. Psalm 8
    Psalm 8[a]
    For the director of music. According to gittith.[b] A psalm of David.

    1 LORD, our Lord,
    how majestic is your name in all the earth!

    You have set your glory
    in the heavens.
    2 Through the praise of children and infants
    you have established a stronghold against your enemies,
    to silence the foe and the avenger.
    3 When I consider your heavens,
    the work of your fingers,
    the moon and the stars,
    which you have set in place,
    4 what is mankind that you are mindful of them,
    human beings that you care for them?[c]

    5 You have made them[d] a little lower than the angels[e]
    and crowned them[f] with glory and honor.
    6 You made them rulers over the works of your hands;
    you put everything under their[g] feet:
    7 all flocks and herds,
    and the animals of the wild,
    8 the birds in the sky,
    and the fish in the sea,
    all that swim the paths of the seas.

    9 LORD, our Lord,
    how majestic is your name in all the earth!

    Zachary prays for you every night Kim! Our thoughts and prayers are with you Cho family!

  6. Psalms 27:14(NIV)

    "Wait for the Lord;
    be strong and take heart
    and wait for the Lord."

    This verse came to me during the most difficult time of my life. Everything seemed hopeless and I was barely hanging on. This verse helped me continue to have hope and faith. Miracles do happen. My life is proof of that.

    May God bless you and your family, may God help your family persevere through this difficult time, and most of all, may God heal you completely and miraculously so that all will know that He is a wonderful God and praise His holy name.

    I will pray for you and your family.

    From a stranger in Seoul, Korea.

  7. "Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need." - Hebrews 4:16

  8. Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

    - 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

    Kim & Peter, we're praying and thinking of you two and the kids.

  9. Ecc 7:13 -Consider what God has done: Who can straighten what he has made crooked?

    This has been a verse God has been continually teaching our family. We want so much for the road to be straight, for things to work out perfectly, for the way to be clear. And when they aren't, it's easy to feel like God isn't in it, or question what is going on. But this verse reminds us that sometimes He makes the way crooked. He is in the "haphazardness" of the road. We find our trust and hope in Him walking the way with us, not in the straightness of the path. Praying that your family would continue to know and feel and testify to Him walking with you in the crooked road.

    Much love from John and Sue and kids.

  10. 2 Corinthians 4:16
    Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.

    I love you. You are truly a beauty on the inside, and that is really why I feel so thankful to have you as my dear friend. Whatever you are going through, you are not alone. I know you have an extremely devoted husband by your side but you have us, your sisters whenever you need to laugh, cry... whatever you need. I know God is hearing all of our collective prayers and has His plan... I trust in Him and know that you do too. This passage has always been an encouragement to me even when I felt the lowest and felt I didn't have the strength to handle certain things going on but especially as you endure chemo and feel physically the lowest you have ever felt, know God is "renewing" you. I love you SO much and even though out of duty, I am staying away, I'm right there with you in spirit...

  11. 33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

    John 16:33 (NIV)

    Kim, it's been awhile - but grateful we have the same eternal fate that we can walk alongside you during this awful time. I love that this verse does not promise us the absence of grief or suffering, but that Jesus has already conquered it.

    May your story be to His eternal glory.

    Jenny Jung Kim, with our family

  12. hi, i go to the rock in toronto but i do not know you. i've been reading the emails and some of the posts. i'm very awkward about these types of situations so i'll just say that you,.. your family are in my thoughts and prayers and i look forward to meeting you all when you are better.
    (cancer truly is a pervasive evil. and i hate it.)

    Isaiah 41:10
    ‘Do not fear, for I am with you;
    Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’

  13. Kim & Peter – Our entire family is praying for you guys and the kids. We love you and will continue to lift you up in prayer! I memorized the following verses as a little girl because they were my Grandpa’s favorite. We also chose this passage for Jacob’s life verses so they are very near and dear to my heart. :)

    Proverbs 3:5-6: Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths.

    As you trust in the Lord through this journey, we’re praying that He will give you clear direction and show you His love.

    We love you!
    Jen (and the rest of the Tallian crew)

  14. Isaiah 43:2
    "When you pass through the waters I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers , they will not sweep over you. WHen you walk through the fire you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze"

    This verse has been a blessing to me over the years, especially a few years ago when i wondered if i would ever get through that horrible time. But He brought me through and He has you right there in His hands Kim. Love ya girl :) Kirsten Holzhauer

  15. Peter & Kim,

    I've been thinking through Romans 8 as I pray for you and your family. Needless to say, we love you both very much and are thankful to walk with you on this journey.

    " 31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?

    35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
    “For your sake we face death all day long;
    we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”

    37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

    - Suggey and Christina

  16. "Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God." Psalm 20:7

    P & K,
    Ken shared this verse with the girls at bedtime last night. He told them that this is the verse that God gave us when Faith was born extremely premature and we didn't know if she would live and/or if she did survive what her prognosis would be. Doctors are good, medicines are good, hospitals are needed, but NOTHING compares to the power of God. He alone is trustworthy and good.

    Love you guys so much it hurts....
    Lydia & Ken, Faith, Naomi & Chaeli

  17. I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, he who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD is your keeper; the LORD is your shade on your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The LORD will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore. --Psalm 121

  18. Psalm 34:4
    I sought the LORD, and He heard me,And delivered me from all my fears.

    Hi Kim!

    I just want you to know that I will continue to pray for you every day! God loves you so much and I know that he will continue to take care of you during this hard time. Please know that you are not alone so please lean on us as much as you need! In regards to your hair don't you worry about a thing!! You are abundantly beautiful on the inside and out!! We love you dearly!!!
    I would love to see you so I could make you laugh but I promise to obey your "wonderful" husband request. However, if you ever need a good laugh please consider me!!
    Te quiero mucho!! Carmen Kim

  19. Dearest Kim - You are always the first person to ask, "How are you doing?" when I see you. It's not just a conversation starter, but you are sincere and concerned. Whatever I'm going through, you always encourage me and tell me how this is a "season" of my life and that has always stuck with me. You enjoy every moment the Lord gives you and our prayer is that especially through this season of chemotherapy and treatment, you would continue to fall on Jesus, remain steadfast in your faith and firmly grounded in Him.

    Ecclesiastes 3:1 ESV
    To everything there is a season, and a time for every matter or purpose under heaven.

    Trusting in His divine purpose,
    Hyung, Jane and two boys who love their Auntie Kim so much

  20. Kim (and Peter),

    I don't cry often, but hearing this made me cry. On the one hand, my heart feels only a little bit of what you are going through - how painful the process must be to actually go through it. However, on the other hand, I am overwhelmed with a peace knowing that God in His great sovereignty will use all of this to be glorified. I will continue to pray for full restoration and healing (after all, you will one day have to homeschool my kids too! jkjk). My family and I are lifting you up in prayer, contending to God for you. We love you!

    Colossians 1:9-14;24-26
    9 And so, from the day we heard, we have not ceased to pray for you, asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of his will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, 10 so as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God. 11 May you be strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy, 12 giving thanks[d] to the Father, who has qualified you[e] to share in the inheritance of the saints in light. 13 He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, 14 in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

    24 Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I am filling up what is lacking in Christ's afflictions for the sake of his body, that is, the church, 25 of which I became a minister according to the stewardship from God that was given to me for you, to make the word of God fully known, 26 the mystery hidden for ages and generations but now revealed to his saints.

    Matt Chandler on his cancer pre-surgury.

  21. I have another one for you! I read this passage when working on my Bible study this morning. He is your mighty rock and your refuge! And, I find it fitting that this passage ends with Selah.
    Much love to you!
    Jen :)

    Psalm 62:5-8
    5 For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
    for my hope is from him.
    6 He only is my rock and my salvation,
    my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
    7 On God rests my salvation and my glory;
    my mighty rock, my refuge is God.
    8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
    pour out your heart before him;
    God is a refuge for us.

  22. Kim & Peter,
    I had a breast cancer in 2009 and now I'm cured and well. The first prayer I had when I heard of the diagnosis was that God make me confess what Job confessed in Job 42:5. I believe I'm gradually but surely approaching that confession.

    My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.(Job 42:5)

  23. 1 Peter 5:10- And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.

    Lamentations 3:22-24- The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases, his mercies never come to an end. They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness. "The LORD is my portion," says my soul, "therefore I will hope in him."

    Praying that the LORD would restore you to full health, strengthen you physically, spiritually and emotionally, and give you peace as you go through the ups and downs of treatment. Though I can only imagine what you must be going through, it is reassuring to know that Jesus our high priest has already been where you are now. He has felt what you are feeling and knows exactly what you are going through, so I know you can trust in Him fully. He sees each tear that you shed, feels each pain that you feel, and will be with you through every step of the treatment and recovery to follow. Praise God for your encouraging testimony and faith, and I pray that God will make His love for you, His precious daughter, known in a way that you have never felt before.
    The girls pray for you every day to get better soon, and we all look forward to seeing your smiling face!
    Annie Chang

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  25. Dear Kim,
    When my dad was battling cancer for many years, I know it was such a painful and difficult time not only for him, but also for our entire family. A friend sent me some of these verses that gave me much comfort during those times and to never give up hope and to trust God with all your heart. I pray that you will also be encouraged and strengthened through them...I will continue to lift you and your family up in prayer. Sending you lots of love!! :) Love, Amy

    2 Corinthians 4:16
    Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.

    Isaiah 41:10
    So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

  26. My name is Charlene, a friend of the Dusenburys and wife of John Park who knew you from the St. Louis church (Jake is his brother). I received this link from them and my heart is with you. I was diagnosed with aggressive breast cancer while pregnant with our third child three years ago (went through chemo and rad). If ever you would like to talk please feel free to contact us. Both of your outlook is so promising in light of this news, I can tell God is your anchor. All our prayers are with you and will continue to be. and

  27. 4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
    8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Phil 4

  28. Dear Peter & Kim,
    We know that nothing enters our lives unless it is decreed or allowed by God. And we are so encouraged by your faith in God’s character and goodness. Your eyewitness is a most compelling evangelion. You are daily in our thoughts and prayers.

    We are praying for God to show up in a big way! And in all of the ups and downs and uncertainties in life, one thing is certain in the life of a Christ follower – Absolute Victory!

    “I know that my redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand on the earth. And after my skin has been destroyed, Yet In My Flesh I will see God…” (Job 19:25-26)

  29. Philippians 4:6-7 "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then, you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand."

    Dear Peter & Kim,
    These verses were the theme of a men's retreat I led at our church in 2008. They were meaningful to me then as I was going through health issues of my own, and praying to understand the health challenges of our son Evan. Through faith, we fully understand how much of a gift from God Evan is to us, and how much God loves and trusts us to entrust us with his care. I hope these words provide peace to you as well. It is difficult to focus at the office this week. I am spending a lot of my time praying for your family.
    God bless you all.
    With much love,
    Dave & Barb Mevis

  30. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
    9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

    These verses carried me through the darkest times of my life and since then have always proved true. His grace, at every moment, is indeed sufficient, and Christ's power is always demonstrated in our weakness. May Christ alone be glorified. Praying with you and for you. May the Lord be near to you and your family.

  31. Scripture from my journal today. Praying it for you!
    "I thank You for answering my prayer and giving me victory!" Psalm 118:21
    Erica C.

  32. "Jesus said, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you; not as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27

    I Pray Lord would continue to bless your entire family with courage and strength! May God be glorified through the courage thought battles won!

  33. Psalm 3:3
    But you, O LORD, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head.
    4 I cried aloud to the LORD, and he answered me from his holy hill.
    5 I lay down and slept; I woke again, for the LORD sustained me.

    Praying that the peace of the Lord may surround you and give you all the rest and strength you need. I love the picture of God as shield; not allowing anything in that He doesn't ordain. These cries are heard by God in heaven. We know that from James 5:16 (Philippians 3:9 explains it isn't a righteousness of our own.)

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  35. James 1:2-3,6
    "2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.
    6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind."

    My bf Bryant and I recently did a devotion together on James, and I used to overlook verse 6, until Bryant called out in verse 6 that we must not only pray/ask, but believe when we pray. I drove to work this week thinking about you Kim, and I’m praying for you and your family. Please continue to inspire us all with your believing faith as you overcome this trial, and rise victoriously. Love from your sister in Christ, Angela

  36. Peter and Kim,

    I have two verses I want to leave you with to encourage you in the days ahead.

    The first verse was one of our daughter Lauren's (who passed away unexpectedly in August of 2010) favorites.

    Psalm 25:4-5 ~ "Show me your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth, and teach me; for you are the God of my salvation: on you do I wait all the day."

    This verse has been a constant reminder and encouragement this last year and a half.

    The next one is one that a close friend of mine wrote down and gave me on the night of Lauren's passing. It has been on my refrigerator since that night, where I can see it every day and be reminded.

    Psalm 27:8 ~ "You have said, 'Seek my face.' My heart says to You, 'Thy face Lord will I seek.'"

    You have been in our prayers continually since we learned the news and will continue to be. Peter, thank you for the updates and for allowing us to, in a way, walk this journey with you.

    Never stop looking up.

    With much love and prayer,
    Karen and Ray Doherty and family

  37. Hi Kim,

    Praying for you and your family... I know that even through this trial that God is and will continue to use you to be a blessing to many. Although I am sorry that I can't be of help in more practical ways, I feel assured to know that there are MANY at Harvest and I'm sure the whole Chicagoland area who will jump at the chance to help in any way possible... thank you for being willing to share this difficult and personal journey. Here's a link to one of Pastor James' old messages on prayer that I watched this week. If you have a chance to watch it, I think it will of great encouragement to you. God bless.

    Sandy Song
    Authentic: Discipline of prayer

  38. Ephesians 3:14-19
    For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in you inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in LOVE, may have power, together with ALL the Lord's people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the LOVE OF CHRIST, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be FILLed to the measure of all the fullness of God.
    With MUCH love - the Hayes family

  39. Dearest Kim,
    I Thes. 1:2-3
    "We always thank God for you, mentioning you in our pryaers. We continually remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ."
    This is my prayer for you and your family....
    With deep love and affection,
    Linda B.

  40. Psalm 20
    May the LORD answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
    May He send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion.
    May He remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings.
    May He give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.
    May we shout for joy over your victory and lift up our banners in the name of our God.
    May the LORD grant all your requests.
    Now this I know: The LORD gives victory to His anointed. He answers him from His heavenly sanctuary with the victorious power of His right hand.
    Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.
    They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm.
    LORD, give victory to the king! Answer us when we call!

    Kim and Peter,

    I love this psalm; it clearly states in whom we should put our trust! All who read your account are blessed because we can clearly see that you are placing your trust in God.
    Our family is praying for you and your family. May God continue to grant you His strength and peace.

    With many prayers,
    Dave and Brenda Henreckson (CC)

  41. I guess in my eyes Kim will always be 10 yrs old.
    Keith Green once wrote, in a birthday card to his wife, his fears of loving his wife as much as the one that died on the cross.
    Peter, reading your updates comforts me to know that the Lord has left her in loving hands with you.
    Genesis 2:23a The man said, “This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh;
    Unfortunately for me, it’s heart breaking to watch your videos, so I will just continue to pray and wait for your updates.
    Philippians 4:6-7
    In Him,
    Jim and Diana

  42. Kim - my heart is heavy for you and your family. God always keeps his promises... He will NEVER leave you, He will guide you, He loves you!! I frequent this scripture often, for others and myself.

    2 Cor. 1:3-4 ... "God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."

    May God comfort you today!
    Scott and Jill Hiestand

  43. Proverbs 3:5-6
    New International Version (NIV)
    5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
    6 in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.[a]

    Dear Peter and Kim,
    When Jason and I had heard the news about Kim, we were extremely shocked and concerned. We are so thankful that the doctors were able to diagnose the situation and that you'll be able to get the treatment you need. We hope and pray that the chemo would work effectively, and that you'll be back on your feet again in no time! The verse above has always been my life verse since high school, and still resonates deep within through every circumstance in life. I hope that it will be of some strength and encouragement to you as you begin this journey of fighting cancer. We will continue to keep you and your family in our prayers!!!

    In His Grace,
    Jason and Alenna

  44. Sung Nok and Kim,
    I cnt even imagine what u both are going thru, let alone Kim.
    But as you mentioned above with encouragement and confidence, God's hand is upon you and his ways are ALWAYS perfect.

    Even thru this heavy trial for you, your complete trust in our Lord is an encouragement to me.

    I'll be praying for you and your family.


  45. Proverbs 3:5-6: trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.

    Our family is continuing to pray for you. We are so encouraged by your strength and faith in Him. Kim, you are a truly remarkable human being and we know that the Lord is using you and your family to bless so many others. May our Good Lord graciously comfort and heal you.

    -The Bargers (Jeff, Pam, and the kiddos).

  46. When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your consolations delight my soul.
    (Ps 94:19)

  47. I heard about your wife through a friend of mine on facebook. I am a cancer survivor (leukemia) and I wanted to encourage your family that God is GREAT and Abundant in POWER and Lovingkindness.
    Luke 11:9-13

    If your wife wants to talk, have her email me at I am also a mom. :)

    Cancer in remission for 7 years due to Grace of God! :)

  48. Isaiah 43
    1 But now thus says the LORD,
    he who created you, O Jacob,
    he who formed you, O Israel:
    “Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.
    2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
    and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
    when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
    and the flame shall not consume you.
    3 For I am the LORD your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
    I give Egypt as your ransom,
    Cush and Seba in exchange for you.
    4 Because you are precious in my eyes,
    and honored, and I love you,
    I give men in return for you,
    peoples in exchange for your life.
    5 Fear not, for I am with you;
    I will bring your offspring from the east,
    and from the west I will gather you.
    6 I will say to the north, Give up,
    and to the south, Do not withhold;
    bring my sons from afar
    and my daughters from the end of the earth,
    7 everyone who is called by my name,
    whom I created for my glory,
    whom I formed and made.”
    8 Bring out the people who are blind, yet have eyes,
    who are deaf, yet have ears!
    9 All the nations gather together,
    and the peoples assemble.
    Who among them can declare this,
    and show us the former things?
    Let them bring their witnesses to prove them right,
    and let them hear and say, It is true.
    10 “You are my witnesses,” declares the LORD,
    “and my servant whom I have chosen,
    that you may know and believe me
    and understand that I am he.
    Before me no god was formed,
    nor shall there be any after me.
    11 I, I am the LORD,
    and besides me there is no savior.
    12 I declared and saved and proclaimed,
    when there was no strange god among you;
    and you are my witnesses,” declares the LORD, “and I am God.
    13 Also henceforth I am he;
    there is none who can deliver from my hand;
    I work, and who can turn it back?”

    14 Thus says the LORD,
    your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:
    “For your sake I send to Babylon
    and bring them all down as fugitives,
    even the Chaldeans, in the ships in which they rejoice.
    15 I am the LORD, your Holy One,
    the Creator of Israel, your King.”

    16 Thus says the LORD,
    who makes a way in the sea,
    a path in the mighty waters,
    17 who brings forth chariot and horse,
    army and warrior;
    they lie down, they cannot rise,
    they are extinguished, quenched like a wick:
    18 “Remember not the former things,
    nor consider the things of old.
    19 Behold, I am doing a new thing;
    now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
    I will make a way in the wilderness
    and rivers in the desert.
    20 The wild beasts will honor me,
    the jackals and the ostriches,
    for I give water in the wilderness,
    rivers in the desert,
    to give drink to my chosen people,
    21 the people whom I formed for myself
    that they might declare my praise.

    This is my favorite chapter in the whole Bible. It speaks to how God is so involved in every detail of our lives, how He is working, making things new and building us new lives, how He controls what comes at us, and how He is on our side, fighting for us! He doesn't let us drown, He doesn't let us burn (vs 2). "God has His hand on the thermostat," Pastor James said once.

    So praying for you guys, all the time!

  49. I remember singing these verses as a chorus when I was growing I thought about you and prayed for you this morning, this popped in my head, as it often does in times of need. I hope that they encourage you as well, my dear friend!

    Lamentations 3:22-24
    The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, His mercies never come to an end;
    They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.
    "the LORD is my portion," says my soul, "therefore I will hope in Him."

    Love you, love you, love you and praying without ceasing!


  50. Casting Crowns has a beautiful song, "Praise you in this Storm" which ends with Psalm 121:1-2, "I lift my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord who made heaven and earth."

    We love you!

    Derek, Jennifer, Oliver, Eliza and Benjamin

    "Praise You In This Storm"

    I was sure by now
    God You would have reached down
    And wiped our tears away
    Stepped in and saved the day
    But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

    As the thunder rolls
    I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
    "I'm with you"
    And as Your mercy falls
    I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
    And takes away

    And I'll praise You in this storm
    And I will lift my hands
    For You are who You are
    No matter where I am
    And every tear I've cried
    You hold in Your hand
    You never left my side
    And though my heart is torn
    I will praise You in this storm

    I remember when
    I stumbled in the wind
    You heard my cry to you
    And you raised me up again
    My strength is almost gone
    How can I carry on
    If I can't find You

    But as the thunder rolls
    I barely hear You whisper through the rain
    "I'm with you"
    And as Your mercy falls
    I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
    And takes away


    I lift my eyes unto the hills
    Where does my help come from?
    My help comes from the Lord
    The Maker of Heaven and Earth

  51. The Lord will fight for you and you have only to be silent Exodus 14:14

    Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the LORD! Psalm 31:24

    these verses have been so helpful to me in times of trial. When we are weak, He is strong. Claim them!

    In continual prayer for Kim and your family

  52.  26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.

     28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[i] have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.

    More Than Conquerors

     31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
       “For your sake we face death all day long;
       we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”[j]

     37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[k] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

  53. "I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God." -Psalm 40:1,3

    These were the verses that spoke to us when Jude had neurosurgery at 5 months old and we were awaiting test results to see if he had cancer. You two prayed with us back then and we are praying with you now, fervently and unceasingly.

    Kwang & Lisa

  54. ...Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
    - Phil 3:13b-14

    Kim, I don't know you well but I have known Peter from STL and remember when he fell in love you before you agreed to date him. We roadtripped from STL to WI and he talked about you the ENTIRE time. Believe me - that's one long, long road trip. I knew then you are one incredible person and Peter was whipped.

    The above verse is my life verse - My battle cry in life. It inspires me to truly forget what is behind (would've, could've, should've) and keep pressing onward! When I read Peter's blog title "Look Out Cancer... Here We Come!", I thought it was like a battle cry.

    My family and I am praying for you an your family daily Kim. Press on sister!

  55. Peter and Kim, this was something my mom always wrote, said, pointed to anytime I was going thru something tough.

    Proverbs 3:5-8

    I remember the day she told me she had lymphoma. I was immediately reminded of this. I was scared, don't get me wrong, but God really used this to give me a sense of calm, especially being 1,600 miles away from her during her treatments.

    Kim, just like my mom, you will beat this. You have an amazing husband at your side and 3 beautiful kids waiting for you to get better, plus a multitude of people praying for you.

    God will bless you!!!

  56. Ps 40:13,17 is my prayer on your behalf. Be pleased, O Lord, to deliver Kim! O Lord, make haste to help her! As for us, we are poor and needy, but the Lord takes thought for us. You are Kim's help and her deliverer; do not delay, O my God!

    Also praying the through the Lord's Prayer in Matthew 6 for you:

    Our Father in heaven,

    Thank you, God, that you are Kim’s father and that she is your beloved child. Thank you that you care for them as a Father, ache with them as a Father, and are consistently at work on their behalf and for their good as a Father.

    hallowed be your name.

    Father, You are holy and just and righteous in your judgements. Thank you that You are trustworthy, and that there is no shadow of turning with You. You are the God Most High, the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and your name is also Provider, Healer, and Comforter. Be all these things for Kim & Peter now.

    Your kingdom come,

    Father, thank you that You sent Your Son so that Kim, Peter, and all who believe can have a hope beyond this fallen world. Come quickly. And while we wait, establish Your kingdom in the hearts of Kim and Peter and their family, and draw others to Your family through this season in their lives. Kim has such a heart for ministry and the Gospel; give her a different, yet just as thriving and vital, ministry during this time, and I pray that ministry would bring her much joy.

    your will be done,
    on earth as it is in heaven.

    Father, it is so hard to understand why You’ve allowed this trial. We have such a finite view of things. But I pray that for Kim and for Peter and the kids especially, You would fill them with a supernatural faith to trust that this is all in Your perfect hands, and You have a plan and a purpose in it all. Grant all of them a wholehearted submission to Your will, and the strength to hold tightly to Your hand and walk this road wherever it takes them. And I pray that you would see fit to grant Kim complete healing and restore her to full health – Your will be done.

    Give us this day our daily bread,

    Father, provide for all of their practical needs. Food, school, and home needs are such a privilege to help with for their brothers and sisters in Christ. I pray even beyond that, you would give Peter’s employer an overwhelming desire to bless them and be flexible with Peter through this time so he can care for his family. Also give them abundant favor in the eyes of all the doctors, nurses and hospital staff, that they would anticipate Kim’s every need and have the wisdom and discernment from You, the Great Physician, to treat her. And I trust that you will meet every penny of need for all of their household and medical bills. Fill them abundantly in every way – pressed down, shaken out, and running over.

    and forgive us our debts,
    as we also have forgiven our debtors.

    Lord, during this time, please grant Kim and Peter forgiveness for anything they may not have gotten right with You or with others. Search them and reveal to them any unforgiveness they may be holding in their hearts, and help them to release that to you. And if there is anyone who has any bitterness towards them or strife in any of their relationships, I pray that this trial would be the tool through which You bring complete healing and restoration there as well.

    And lead us not into temptation,
    but deliver us from evil.

    I pray that in all this, Kim and Peter and the kids would not fall prey to the enemy’s schemes. Surround them, Lord; defend them. Be their strong tower. May the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, guard their hearts and their minds in Christ Jesus. And please, Father, keep an army of prayer warriors on their knees, interceding on Kim & Peter’s behalf, led by the Spirit.

    We trust You, Lord. We love you. And we pray all this in the mighty, matchless name of Jesus, in whom all things are possible.


  57. dearest Cho family:

    Isaiah 40:28-31
    Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary,and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

    These verses have been pressing on my heart ever since I read the first note Peter wrote on fb... God is with you. He is your strength. Hope you, Kim + Peter and your kids draw much strength from all of these passages.

    Thank you again for sharing your journey during this difficult time.

    -Cindy K.

  58. Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

    This has become my life verse after my near deaths with the birth of Evan. Even though it wasn't fun to walk through and I had so many questions after the experience, I wouldn't change a thing. The Lord is so faithful.
    As I anticipate the birth of the baby in my belly I wonder what will happen this time around. Will I survive this labor and delivery? That is were faith steps in. I am thankful He is in control of my life and not me! I'd go through it all again if it makes me more like Him!

    I know the Lord has His hands on you, Kim and your precious family. He loves you so much! I do too!

    From Glory to Glory!

    Peter, Mike had the same 20 minutes of hell. He can relate. The Dr said " The good news is she is alive, the bad news is we don't know what to do".
    But our Lord and Savior always knows what we need!

    Kim you are called for His purpose, you are His.
    I miss you tons!

  59. Hi guys,

    From Psalm 8 - When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?

    We're praying for you guys,

    Eunice and Jungsun

  60. 1 Peter 5:10 And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.

    I saw someone had already posted this verse, but thought you could never have too much of a good thing! This is the very first verse that God inserted into my heart when Callie was a baby and we realized that things were not going to be as we had hoped. The suffering is just for a little bit, sweet friend, and even within the trial, He will give times of restoration. The strength He gives is more than the strength needed to endure. It is a strength that EXCEEDS the trial. Praying fervently. Love you.

  61. Dearest Kim and her loving family,

    You are BELOVED.

    This is the Word of the Lord from the book of Mark, chapter 4, verses 37-41.

    And a great windstorm arose, and the waves were breaking into the boat, so that the boat was already filling. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion. And they woke him and said to him, "Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?" And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, "Peace! Be still!" And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. He said to them, "Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?" And they were filled with great fear and said to one another, "Who then is this, that even wind and sea obey him?"

    During a hard time in my life, God used this passage to remind me that He has ALL authority over heaven and earth. No one or nothing else does. He has ultimate control over all.

    And at the same time, His love for us is infinite. Kim, our Lord loves you even more then you love your 3 beautiful children.

    With a God so mighty with all authority and a love for you that is so deep, Kim you are in the safest place in His arms. When your thoughts run wild, I pray you will rest in this awesome truth.

    Know that you are in my daily prayers, and that my close friends at Redeemer Community Church in San Francisco who have never met you are praying for you. I told them that you are the most gentle and kind-hearted person I've ever met, because of Jesus in you.

    Love you Kim,
    jenny (and leo and hannah who you will meet someday!)

  62. Dear Peter and Kim,
    Psalm 86 has been one of my favorites for many years. It is a heartfelt cry out to God, and it reminds me of many of God's qualities when I am in a time of need. In the midst of his difficult circumstances, David is still turning to God, worshiping God, and praising God. What a blessing to know that God is with us in the midst of any kind of trial. I will be regularly and fervently praying for you in the days, weeks, and months ahead.

    Psalm 86
    A prayer of David.
    1 Hear me, LORD, and answer me, for I am poor and needy. 2 Guard my life, for I am faithful to you; save your servant who trusts in you. You are my God; 3 have mercy on me, Lord, for I call to you all day long. 4 Bring joy to your servant, Lord, for I put my trust in you. 5 You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to you. 6 Hear my prayer, LORD; listen to my cry for mercy.
    7 When I am in distress, I call to you, because you answer me. 8 Among the gods there is none like you, Lord; no deeds can compare with yours. 9 All the nations you have made will come and worship before you, Lord; they will bring glory to your name. 10 For you are great and do marvelous deeds; you alone are God. 11 Teach me your way, LORD, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name.
    12 I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever. 13 For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths, from the realm of the dead. 14 Arrogant foes are attacking me, O God; ruthless people are trying to kill me— they have no regard for you. 15 But you, Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
    slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness. 16 Turn to me and have mercy on me; show your strength in behalf of your servant;
    save me, because I serve you just as my mother did. 17 Give me a sign of your goodness, that my enemies may see it and be put to shame, for you, LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

    Another passage I have turned to is Jeremiah 29:11-13. "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." God has a plan for each of us, and he offers us an eternal hope in the midst of all circumstances. He listens to us and is there for us when we call out to him.

  63. " For, I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand;
    it is I who say to you: ' Fear not, I am the One who helps you". Is. 41:21

  64. 13 I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD
    In the land of the living.
    14 Wait for the LORD;
    Be strong and let your heart take courage;
    Yes, wait for the LORD.

    -Psalm 27:13-14

    Hi Peter and Kim
    These verses really ministered to me when I was going through some tough times building my own family. Know that your friends in Toronto are continually praying for you.

  65. Dearest Peter & Kim,
    Take heart for you are loved with an everlasting love. All that he gives and allows is out of his love for you, which never fails.

    Romans 8:37-39:
    37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

    Sending our love and prayers,
    Miryung & Marcel Fontijn

  66. Footprints in the Sand
            One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
                 Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
                      In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
                           Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
                               other times there were one set of footprints.
                                      This bothered me because I noticed
                                    that during the low periods of my life,
                                 when I was suffering from
                             anguish, sorrow or defeat,
                         I could see only one set of footprints.
              So I said to the Lord,
          "You promised me Lord,
             that if I followed you,
                 you would walk with me always.
                       But I have noticed that during
                              the most trying periods of my life
                                     there have only been one
                                           set of footprints in the sand.
                                               Why, when I needed you most,
                                              you have not been there for me?"
                                     The Lord replied,
                              "The times when you have
                      seen only one set of footprints,
              is when I carried you."
                                                       Mary Stevenson
    This poem has always given me comfort..

  67. The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17).

    This gives me peace and reminds me to turn God, my strength, and to music, my escape, when things are hard. Kim, I want you to kick this thing in the ass! I think of you often and know you will beat this!

  68. "Do you not know? Have you not heard?
    The Everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth
    Does not become weary or tired.
    His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary,
    And to him who lacks might He increases power." Is 40:28-29

    I felt the comforting hand of the Lord when this verse came alive to me in my youth and have leaned on His Word ever since. The Lord is good! I love and miss you guys very much and am praying for you! - Eug

  69. Hello Kim and Peter, I know that you can feel the prayers and thoughts and love that your church family have for you. What you are going through has touched our entire family. We long to be able to be with you and support you. It just feels as though our prayers are not enough. It feels like we should walk with you in some way, but just don’t know how.

    Peter you asked for verses that come to mind…just this past summer I did not believe that I would be alive today. I remember through tears crying on father’s day, that I would not see my children grow. I struggled with spiritual and physical pain. My only comfort was the time I spent praying to God, reading God’s word and being with God’s people. The significant portion of my trial (chastening or test) lasted 90 days. One of the things that I did was to keep a daily journal of what I went through. The journal is a cornerstone in my life – both good and bad. I went through the journal and choose some of the verses that gave me comfort. Each one has a story behind it. I hope you can find your own story from God’s word. As our church always says, which has new meaning for me now – you are loved

    Psalm 31:24 (ESV)
    Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the LORD!

    Proverbs 3:25-26 (ESV)
    25 Do not be afraid of sudden terror
    or of the ruin of the wicked, when it comes,
    26 for the LORD will be your confidence
    and will keep your foot from being caught.

    Romans 8:18 (ESV)
    18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
    1 Peter 5:10 (ESV)
    10 And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.

    Psalm 34:18 (ESV)
    18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted
    and saves the crushed in spirit.

    Matthew 6:27 (ESV)
    27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?

    Psalm 139:16 (ESV)
    16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
    in your book were written, every one of them,
    the days that were formed for me,
    when as yet there was none of them.

    1 Peter 4:12-13 (ESV)
    12 Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.

    2 Chronicles 16:9 (NKJV)
    9 For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him.

    2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (ESV)
    4 For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. 5 We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ,

    James 1:12 (ESV)
    12 Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.
    Proverbs 3:5 (ESV)
    5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
    and do not lean on your own understanding.

    Isaiah 41:10 (ESV)
    10 fear not, for I am with you;
    be not dismayed, for I am your God;
    I will strengthen you, I will help you,
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

    Part 1 of 2

  70. Part 2

    Isaiah 26:3-4 (ESV)
    3 You keep him in perfect peace
    whose mind is stayed on you,
    because he trusts in you.
    4 Trust in the LORD forever,
    for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock.

    Psalm 37:7a (ESV)
    7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
    1 Peter 5:6-7 (ESV)
    6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, 7 casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.

    Psalm 23:4 (ESV)
    4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
    I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
    your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

    Psalm 56:4 (ESV)
    4 In God, whose word I praise,
    in God I trust; I shall not be afraid.
    What can flesh do to me?

    Proverbs 1:33 (ESV)
    33 but whoever listens to me will dwell secure
    and will be at ease, without dread of disaster.”

    Joshua 1:9 (ESV)
    9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

    Psalm 27:1 (ESV)
    1 The LORD is my light and my salvation;
    whom shall I fear?
    The LORD is the stronghold of my life;
    of whom shall I be afraid?

    Psalm 34:4 (ESV)
    4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me
    and delivered me from all my fears.

    Psalm 46:1(ESV)
    1 God is our refuge and strength,
    a very present help in trouble.

    Psalm 46:10 (ESV)
    10 “Be still, and know that I am God.
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth!”

    1 John 4:18 (ESV)
    18 There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.

    Psalm 28:7 (ESV)
    7 The LORD is my strength and my shield;
    in him my heart trusts, and I am helped;
    my heart exults,
    and with my song I give thanks to him.

    Deuteronomy 31:8 (ESV)
    8 It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”

    2 Timothy 1:7 (ESV)
    7 for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.

  71. Dear Kim and Pete,

    As always, we are praying for you guys and won't stop.  You can tell by the amount of love and support you guys are feeling that you are very loved and have touched many, many hearts!  Our hearts are so grieved for you all, but seeing you rely on the Lord encourages us too.

    I wanted to write you a quick note, hopefully of encouragement, and let you know that I have been down the road of cancer and CHOP chemo with both my brother and my mom.  Ugly and scary, but God is still so good and you are not alone.  My brother has a slow moving kind of lymphoma.  He has had CHOP chemo, other kinds of chemo, a bone marrow transplant and many other things done to him, but it is over 20 years ago that he was diagnosed with cancer and he is still with us, praise God!  When he was in the hospital for his bone marrow transplant, we plastered his wall with posters that had Bible verses on them for him to look at.  One verse that I wrote out for him was "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you." Isaiah 43:1-3

    Also, from Psalm 46  1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.  2 Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, 3 though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling.  Selah

    Oddly enough, my mom was diagnosed almost 8 years ago with the same kind of lymphoma as my brother, but in 2009, they found out she had a new aggressive kind of lymphoma that was growing very rapidly.  There was a large mass (about the size of a soccer ball) growing in her abdomen and pressing on her pancreas.  I talked to her today, but she didn't know what kind it was.  There are so many kinds of lymphoma.  She had CHOP chemo very similar to yours (I think hers was D-CHOP, though), but they gave her only a 40% chance of it working and her surviving.  She had so many people praying for her and God was so gracious to us.  Fortunately, she responded well to the chemo and its affect on her body was not near as bad as what we remembered from when my brother had it (they have improved meds unbelievably).  Of course, when you are at the point of really not knowing what comes next, leaning on God is all that you have left.  He always proves faithful!  Leaning on God and all the prayers being offered up for her is what brought her through.  At the time our little Brynn was only 3, but she used to say "God is with us."  That brought my mom great comfort and she used to say that to herself, and also recite Psalm 23 to herself.  She is a woman of great faith and so she gained so much comfort from being in God's Word.  One of the verses she loves is Isaiah 40:31 "Those who hope in the Lord shall renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint." 

    I say all this to encourage you that you will make it through this.  If it would be beneficial or if you have questions, I know my mom would love to talk to you.  She has a beautiful, sweet and loving spirit just like you, Kim.  It is very helpful to have the support of others who have gone through this too, and there are always questions that you might have.  She lost her hair too, and I think because of her age (77), was fairly weak.  The meds they gave her controlled the nausea very well and as she continued in her chemo and the cancer got smaller, her stomach was more comfortable.  

    Well, as I said before, we are praying and I know my mom is too, and will have her church praying for you all as well.   

    Continued on next post....

  72. Psalm 23
    1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 
 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures. 
He leads me beside still waters. 
 3 He restores my soul. 
He leads me in paths of righteousness 
   for his name's sake.
     4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, 
   I will fear no evil, 
for you are with me; 
   your rod and your staff, 
   they comfort me.
     5 You prepare a table before me 
   in the presence of my enemies; 
you anoint my head with oil; 
   my cup overflows. 
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me 
   all the days of my life, 
and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD 

    With love, Bonnie (and family)

  73. Dear Pastor Kim and family,

    "One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

    “The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’There is no commandment greater than these.”

    “Well said, teacher,” the man replied. “You are right in saying that God is one and there is no other but him. To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices.”

    When Jesus saw that he had answered wisely, he said to him, “You are not far from the kingdom of God.” And from then on no one dared ask him any more questions. " -Mark 12: 28-34

    To our family, this is one of our favorite Bible passages and it was the theme for the Calvary Youth Group Winter Retreat last year (2011) and especially in a situation like this I hope that this passage encouraged you in some ways... I really like this one in times of doubt and fear because it really teaches us what we have to do the most despite trials: Love the Lord and our neighbors foremost. I know that you guys definitely do this and follow this commandment well and I can't tell you anything that you don't already know: God's glory WILL prevail especially going through one of the scariest moments in your lives and I believe He's testing your faith and your love. You still find ways to have joy and faithfulness to God and you guys really inspire me in ways I can't imagine, even if I'm only a Freshman in High School (representing for my family here). I'm really joyed that you know where to put your faith and love and I'm really joyed that God will use this situation to help others with the same come to Him. Did you guys realize that through this you are going to expand His kingdom!?! Thanks so much for everything: your love, prayers, and relationships and we'll definitely continue to pray for you as one family in Christ and may God continue to use you as models and may God and others continue be the source of your love like you inspired me to do!

    By His love and mercy,
    Eugene Kim and family (with respect from Calvary Youth Group.)

  74. The LORD answered Moses, "Is the LORD's arm too short? You will now see whether or not what I say will come true for you."

    Numbers 11 v 23

  75. A favorite hymn I find comforting in times of personal trouble or sadness:

    Be Still My Soul

    Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
    Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
    Leave to thy God to order and provide;
    In every change, He faithful will remain.
    Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
    Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

    Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake
    To guide the future, as He has the past.
    Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
    All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
    Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know
    His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.

    Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on
    When we shall be forever with the Lord.
    When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,
    Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
    Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past
    All safe and blessèd we shall meet at last.

    I am praying for you and your dear family, Kim
    -Jody Chidlow

  76. "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. Even so, I will defend my own ways before Him." - Job 13:15

  77. Our Lord is "mighty to save". - Isaiah 63:1

  78. 14 But Zion said, “The LORD has forsaken me,
    the Lord has forgotten me.”

    15 “Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
    and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
    Though she may forget,
    I will not forget you!"

    - Isaiah 49:14-15

    When I had over 6 months of excruciating back pain that led to surgery, I happened to be reading through Isaiah. Although a painful and depressing time, it was also spiritually sacred and Isaiah spoke powerfully at key moments. I remember these verses in particular after crying in frustration. As a new mother to infant Ethan, it really ministered to me. In moments that feel like He has forsaken, He is tenderly caring and mindful just as Kim's motherly heart would be towards her own. But even more so in His perfect nature. Praying through it all you know that you are His treasured possession!

  79. Nahum 1:7 " The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble, and He knows those that take refuge in him."
    I am Sally Huston's Mom, be assured of my hubby and I both have come through thyroid cancer...and can say that yes..our God is good..all the time!

  80. - 2 Cor 12:9
    But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

    My favorite personal and reassuring, so complete and succinct (so that even I could memorize).

    Kim, our family is praying for you every day - Hannah and Emma have this renewed fervency to pray - so even in your weakness, you continue to minister. It's one of the many qualities that makes you so special. And as God didn't necessarily remove Paul's thorn related to the verse above, I pray you'll continue to find reassurance, perseverance and strength in God's grace and perfect power as it overcomes this cancer!

    As for your hair Kim, I always found it to be a distracting/stumbling element of your outward beauty, so now we'll all be able to appreciate your inner beauty even more - that goes for you too Peter (the latter part only, of course).

    And Peter by brother, you are an encouragment; thanks for showing me what it means to love your wife like Jesus loves the church. I hope you can find some time to rest; even God did.

    In His Love,

  81. Kim, Praying for you and your family that the Lord would be your source of strength and praying that he brings you to perfect health. 1Peter 1:6-7 In this this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trails. These have come so that your faith-of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire- may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.
    2 Samuel 22:33 It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.
    Psalm 91:4 He will cover you with His feathers; you will take refuge under His wings. His faithfulness will be a protective shield
    Much Love to you and your family :-) Tiffany & Ken Busch

  82. Praying this for you right now:

    17 as it is written, “I have made you the father of many nations”—in the presence of the God in whom he believed, who gives life to the dead and calls into existence the things that do not exist. 18 In hope he believed against hope, that he should become the father of many nations, as he had been told, “So shall your offspring be.” 19 He did not weaken in faith when he considered his own body, which was as good as dead (since he was about a hundred years old), or when he considered the barrenness[c] of Sarah's womb. 20 No unbelief made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, 21 fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised. (Romans 4:17-21)

  83. Hi Kim,
    Remember the Lord loves you and we love you. In the most difficult time in my past, the Lord gave me this verse which I share with you today:

    I have done it, and I will carry you; And I will bear you and I will deliver you.

    Isaiah 46:4b

    Whatever His purpose is in all this, I know He has done it, He will carry you, He will deliver you...

    And we pray these words each moment for you as you endure this trial of trials.

    Love you,

    Jay and Jen

  84. Kirk and Grace VanMaanenJanuary 14, 2012 at 1:20 PM

    Psalm 103

    Bless the LORD, O My Soul

    Of David.
    1 Bless the LORD, O my soul,
    and all that is within me,
    bless his holy name!
    2 Bless the LORD, O my soul,
    and forget not all his benefits,
    3 who forgives all your iniquity,
    who heals all your diseases,
    4 who redeems your life from the
    who crowns you with steadfast
    love and mercy,
    5 who satisfies you with good
    so that your youth is renewed
    like the eagle's.

    6 The LORD works righteousness
    and justice for all who are
    7 He made known his ways to Moses,
    his acts to the people of Israel.
    8 The LORD is merciful and
    gracious, slow to anger and
    abounding in steadfast love.
    9 He will not always chide,
    nor will he keep his anger
    10 He does not deal with us
    according to our sins,
    nor repay us according to our
    11 For as high as the heavens are
    above the earth,
    so great is his steadfast love
    toward those who fear him;
    12 as far as the east is from the
    west, so far does he remove our
    transgressions from us.
    13 As a father shows compassion to
    his children,
    so the LORD shows compassion to
    those who fear him.
    14 For he knows our frame;
    he remembers that we are dust.

    15 As for man, his days are like
    he flourishes like a flower of
    the field;
    16 for the wind passes over it, and
    it is gone,
    and its place knows it no more.
    17 But the steadfast love of the
    LORD is from everlasting to
    everlasting on those who fear
    and his righteousness to
    children's children,
    18 to those who keep his covenant
    and remember to do his
    19 The LORD has established his
    throne in the heavens,
    and his kingdom rules over all.

    20 Bless the LORD, O you his
    you mighty ones who do his word,
    obeying the voice of his word!
    21 Bless the LORD, all his hosts,
    his ministers, who do his will!
    22 Bless the LORD, all his works,
    in all places of his dominion.
    Bless the LORD, O my soul!

    Trusting God's Word is the loudest voice in your heads and the greatest comfort to your hearts.
    Love you guys...praying and watching with you...looking to see what our great Savior and Lord desires to do in all of this. He will receive the glory!
    ~Kirk & Grace VanMaanen

  85. Psalm 73:25-26—"Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

    Kim and Peter, may our good Lord be the strength of your hearts as you both desire nothing else on heaven and earth besides him. We love you, and we're praying for you!

    Brian, Jane, Timothy, Titus and Leah.

  86. Isaiah 49:16-
    See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.

    This verse comforted me when my mom was diagnosed with cancer 9 years ago- I know a God who writes our names on his palms could never forget us for even a second.

  87. Psalm 145: 9-16
    9 The LORD is good to all;
    he has compassion on all he has made.
    10 All your works praise you, LORD;
    your faithful people extol you.
    11 They tell of the glory of your kingdom
    and speak of your might,
    12 so that all people may know of your mighty acts
    and the glorious splendor of your kingdom.
    13 Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom,
    and your dominion endures through all generations.

    The LORD is trustworthy in all he promises
    and faithful in all he does.[c]
    14 The LORD upholds all who fall
    and lifts up all who are bowed down.
    15 The eyes of all look to you,
    and you give them their food at the proper time.
    16 You open your hand
    and satisfy the desires of every living thing.

  88. Kim and Peter,

    Here are two verses that I will be praying over you continually:

    Joshua 1:9 Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened and do not be dismayed for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

    Oh sweet Kim, how I have seen this verse in you through all the days I have known you. You are a strong daughter of our great God, and so full of much so that I have been pointed to the Lord so many times as I have witnessed your fearlessness and hope in the Lord as you have followed so humbly the plan He has revealed to you for your life. Every new turn the Lord has shown you, you have forged ahead with strength and courage and this new turn has been no different! Is it a surprise to me that you are making friends with your nurses? Absolutely not!!! Kim, others are naturally drawn to you because it is so evident that Christ is in you...the hope of glory!!

    Job 23:10 He knows the way that I take and when he has tried me, I shall come out as gold.

    What a treasure! He knows, Kim, He knows! He knows the way! I am praising Him already for you will come out as gold!

    Kim, I love you!!

  89. PART I

    Mon, Jan 9, 2012 at 9:05 PM

    When I thought, "My foot slips," your steadfast love, O LORD, held me up.
    When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul.
    ...The LORD has become my stronghold, and my God the rock of my refuge.
    Psalm 94:18-19, 22

    Dearest Kim,

    Though we had never spoken much during my time at Calvary, I recall the beauty of the LORD's work in you and the example you held for us young women - in knowledge, action, word, deed. The joy on your face and in your heart were clear reflections of your love for Christ and the humble servitude you had in serving others as our King has served you (and continues to!). I recall sentimental things such as the smiles you had each LORD's Day and during a Christmas party at the Cho's for worship team, making us sundaes with the pirouette sticks decoratively placed in the ice cream scoops as one of the many delicious desserts you had to offer. The memories make me smile, brings warmth to my heart, and encourages me in my walk - good fruit of seemingly "small" things past! He is faithful. :)

    Though in the past I tended to not have been as open in my journeying, I will take this opportunity to say that the little I know about Life (as Jesus Himself is THE Life!) is that He holds you dearly in His hands every step of the way. Scripture states that "A person's steps are directed by the LORD. How then can anyone understand their own way (Proverbs 20:24)?" How sweet it is that even in our times of not understanding, the LORD still knows! Sometimes it is difficult to see past pain in the moments of its occurrences, yet it is in those very moments we get to recall Father guides our steps the most, as everything is thrown upon Him and in His arms... Father upholds you, as Holy Spirit indwelleth, abiding in you, and you in Him.

    I also would like to share with you a poem and a song, if I may. The poem is in a book of Puritan prayers -- perhaps you already know it. The song, an old hymn, is one I heard during my time out in Washington, D.C. Both are favorites of mine. Lastly, below the signature line, is a prayer for you. Though I always hesitate to send these (as there is something to be said about secret prayer) I know sometimes it helps me to read or hear one's prayer for me if the laying on of hands is unavailable. Nevertheless, Father knows. :)

    Blessings, sister. He makes you well.

    Romans 5:8

  90. PART II

    Mon, Jan 9, 2012 at 9:05 PM


    Thou has brought me to the valley of vision,
    where I live in the depths but see thee
    in the heights;
    hemmed in by mountains of sin I behold
    thy glory.

    Let me learn by paradox
    that the way down is the way up,
    that to be low is to be high,
    that the broken heart is the healed heart,
    that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit,
    that the repenting soul is the victorious soul,
    that to having nothing is to possess all,
    that to bear the cross is to wear the crown,
    that to give is to receive,
    that the valley is a place of vision.

    Lord, in the daytime stars can be seen from
    deepest wells,
    and the deeper the wells the brighter
    thy stars shine;
    Let me find thy light in my darkness,
    thy life in my death,
    thy joy in my sorrow,
    thy grace in my sin,
    thy riches in my poverty,
    thy glory in my valley.

    The Valley of Vision, Arthur Bennett

    [ Hark! I Hear the Harps Eternal ]

    Hark, I hear the harps eternal
    Ringing on the farther shore,
    As I near those swollen waters,
    With their deep and solemn roar

    Hallelujah, hallelujah,
    Hallelujah, praise the Lamb
    Hallelujah, hallelujah,
    Glory to the Great I AM!

    And my soul tho' stained with sorrow,
    Fading as the light of day,
    Passes swiftly o'er those waters
    To that city far away.

    Hallelujah, hallelujah,
    Hallelujah, praise the Lamb
    Hallelujah, hallelujah,
    Glory to the Great I AM!

    Some have cross'd before us safely
    To that land of perfect rest.
    Can you hear them singing faintly
    In the mansion of the blest?

    Hallelujah, hallelujah,
    Hallelujah, praise the Lamb
    Hallelujah, hallelujah,
    Glory to the Great I AM!

    Mighty Jesus, bear us over,
    There to kneel before Thy throne.
    May we join the saints forever
    Praising Thee, and Thee alone

  91. PART III-a

    Mon, Jan 9, 2012 at 9:05 PM

    Dear LORD,

    I praise You for your handiwork and creation, that You Who have created the universe and its infinite crescendo of galaxies, You Who have numbered the stars and made man in Your image, are not only our Father but the LORD of all the earth as well. I thank You that you have known us before time itself -- as we know it -- has began, knitting us in our mother's wombs and knowing the very number of hairs on our heads. I thank You that You have craftily created us in Your image, and cradling us in Your hands as You created us from dust, upholding us until to the dust we shall return. I also thank You that You have breathed life into our bones, giving us the very life that we know to be true in its seemingly most tangible of forms, and yet giving us true Life in Christ through His penal substitution for us on the cross and resurrection thereafter. Though I confess in our finiteness we oft forget the perplexing Sovereignty You have over our lives in this Truth, I give thanks that You remain faithful to us and in Your redeeming work bring about such completion until the end. I thank You that because of Your Son, we look forward to the day when we shall have actual resurrected bodies because of Christ alone as we live in glory with You. I thank You for such hope, and also for the beautiful imagery that we have, knowing the city that is to come. And I thank You that in our journeying, You guide us each step of the way until we get to go Home.

  92. PART III-b

    Mon, Jan 9, 2012 at 9:05 PM

    Father, sometimes in our journeying we are faced with trials that cause pain. I bring forth to You the Cho's, and ask for Your merciful hand upon them during this time, as You have brought them forth in partnering ministry for such a time as this. I pray for Holy Spirit, Who You have left with us, our Great Comforter, to comfort each of them at this time, and specifically and especially Kim as she experiences physical pain. Guard her mind spiritually at this time, and may it be further embedded and dwelling in Your Truth. We are holistic beings, Father, as you know, so I pray Your love would be ever-present to her and she would feel Your presence even in the hospital room, and that same love would be present to Peter and their children, wherever they might be. I thank You for the way in which You have brought up Peter and Kim, in their individual lives and together in union, that Kim was presented before you blameless and spotless because of the Lamb, and that Peter washed her in the Word and continues to do so each day. I thank You that You have given Kim such a heart for Your Kingdom, and both use their giftings to minister to others and spread the Truly good news of the Gospel to which you have so mercifully given to us. I pray for strength for Peter at this time, as the male and as the head. Grant him words of wisdom and comfort to speak toward Kim and the children, as You, oh Father, speak to him through Your Word and in meditative prayer. May his times with You be ever sweeter, that his times out "in the field" might be ever bolder. Grant each of them hearts of great faith, keeping their eyes continually fixed upon Christ, the author and perfecter of their faith, that they would continually recall the prize even in what seems the direst of moments on this side of heaven during this time. Give them eternal perspective, and for the children also, especially when things might seem complicated or confusing or within the unknown insofar as we are able to see as humans, but graciously know by the Truth You have granted us that You see and know all. Heal her completely, Father, as You are the Great Physician, and bring Your Holy Spirit to do so, that the doctors wouldn't even need to test her anymore. Do a miraculous work here because we know You are able, though we come in humbleness and humility also knowing that all things work for Your glory, in greater ways than we can even see. Give either way the doctors and nurses wisdom and swift actions with great accuracy and detail, and that all logistics of the machines, electronics, tools, lab tests, and instruments used would be aligned by Your hand to get quick diagnoses, treatment, and healing. May Christ be exalted in all this above all else, and even for souls to be saved, be they in or out of the hospital from a simple witness of the Cho's faith and living as You work in their lives and they testify of Your Greatness and love. Continue to remain to be the Cho's strength, and sustain both Kim and Peter and their children as they look to You, praying without ceasing and worshipping You still because You are worthy of it. Above all, bless their family and cover them with Your Presence, ministering to each and granting them even greater joy as they look to the cross, knowing fully that this, too, has been nailed years ago, and Kim shall pull through.

    We love You, LORD, so much, and thank You that in our frailty You remember us, take care of us, love us, and are with us. We thank You that we have a High Priest Who can sympathize with us in every way and intercedes for us at Your right hand. We thank You that because of this, we can come boldly to Your alter, into the throne of grace, laying our requests and petitions at Your feet. Thank You for Thy faithfulness. May we never forget and rather remember how You have made and continue to make all things beautiful.


    In Christ's Name,
    for our good
    and Your glory


  93. Psalm 30:5

    For his anger lasts only a moment,
    but his favor lasts a lifetime;
    weeping may stay for the night,
    but rejoicing comes in the morning.

    2 Corinthians 1

    Dear Kim,

    My husband and I are praying for you and your entire family.

    We have been praying through these verses for you. These are verses that have been a great comfort to us during difficult times. Psalm 30:5 was (is) a verse that comforted me so much during one of the darkest times of my life, when the circumstances at hand were much too large and felt so hopeless.

    We pray that Christ will be your strength, portion, and joy during this time and forever.

    A sister and brother in Christ

  94. Peter & Kim,
    Praying for the both of you and your family. Thank you for being such an encouragement even through these extremely difficult times. It's strengthened my little faith these past few days. And it's been a reminder that it's not about my life, but about who God is and the fact that He is good and able to do more than what we can ask or imagine. To God be the glory.

    Ephesians 3:16-21
    16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
    20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

    Jeannie Cho

  95. Craig & Jenny SaltzmanJanuary 15, 2012 at 12:26 AM

    Psalm 34:17-20
    "The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all; he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken."

    Isaiah 41:10
    "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

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  97. Psalm 125
    A song of ascents.
    1 Those who trust in the LORD are like Mount Zion,
    which cannot be shaken but endures forever.
    2 As the mountains surround Jerusalem,
    so the LORD surrounds his people
    both now and forevermore.

    Taken from one of the songs the people of God would sing as they journeyed together- reminding each other of the goodness of God with each step. Peter and Kim, we are all singing this with you!

  98. parts of Luke 11 that have & continue to blow my mind away...

    3 So the sisters sent to him, saying, “Lord, he whom you love is ill.” 4 But when Jesus heard it he said, “This illness does not lead to death. It is for the glory of God, so that the Son of God may be glorified through it.”
    5 Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. 6 So, when he heard that Lazarus was ill, he stayed two days longer in the place where he was. 7 Then after this he said to the disciples, “Let us go to Judea again.” 8 The disciples said to him, “Rabbi, the Jews were just now seeking to stone you, and are you going there again?” 9 Jesus answered, “Are there not twelve hours in the day?If anyone walks in the day, he does not stumble, because he sees the light of this world. 10 But if anyone walks in the night, he stumbles, because the light is not in him.”

    32 Now when Mary came to where Jesus was and saw him, she fell at his feet, saying to him, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.” 33 When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in his spirit and greatly troubled. 34 And he said, “Where have you laid him?” They said to him, “Lord, come and see.” 35 Jesus wept.

    37 But some of them said, “Could not he who opened the eyes of the blind man also have kept this man from dying?”

    38 Then Jesus, deeply moved again, came to the tomb. It was a cave, and a stone lay against it. 39 Jesus said, “Take away the stone.” Martha, the sister of the dead man, said to him, “Lord, by this time there will be an odor, for he has been dead four days.” 40 Jesus said to her, “Did I not tell you that if you believed you would see the glory of God?” 41 So they took away the stone. And Jesus lifted up his eyes and said, “Father, I thank you that you have heard me. 42 I knew that you always hear me, but I said this on account of the people standing around, that they may believe that you sent me.” 43 When he had said these things, he cried out with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out.” 44 The man who had died came out, his hands and feet bound with linen strips, and his face wrapped with a cloth. Jesus said to them, “Unbind him, and let him go.”

    i love this passage bc it came to me at a time when i questioned what God was doing and if He was there at all. i was blown away when reading this passage bc i was shown how Jesus waited & waited for the perfect time to come heal Lazarus. He wasn't idly waiting around or doing something else that was "more important" but painfully resisting with everything He had to not come or heal sooner. it was as if He felt and was with Lazarus every wretched moment... and He waited until the perfect time came to heal Lazarus so that God's glory would be revealed... and revealed in such a way that no one could question how this miracle was done or deny who He was. He did all this knowing that it would ultimately lead to His arrest and His death...

    i am so encouraged by you both in more ways than i can write here on this post. verse 40 reminds me of you guys bc you believe with all of your heart, and i know i have seen more of His glory as a result of your belief.

    <3 meeyoung

  99. Psalms 77
    I cried out to God with my voice—
    To God with my voice;
    And He gave ear to me.
    2 In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord;
    My hand was stretched out in the night without ceasing;
    My soul refused to be comforted.
    3 I remembered God, and was troubled;
    I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. Selah
    4 You hold my eyelids open;
    I am so troubled that I cannot speak.
    5 I have considered the days of old,
    The years of ancient times.
    6 I call to remembrance my song in the night;
    I meditate within my heart,
    And my spirit makes diligent search.
    7 Will the Lord cast off forever?
    And will He be favorable no more?
    8 Has His mercy ceased forever?
    Has His promise failed forevermore?
    9 Has God forgotten to be gracious?
    Has He in anger shut up His tender mercies? Selah
    10 And I said, “This is my anguish;
    But I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High.”
    11 I will remember the works of the LORD;
    Surely I will remember Your wonders of old.
    12 I will also meditate on all Your work,
    And talk of Your deeds.
    13 Your way, O God, is in the sanctuary;
    Who is so great a God as our God?
    14 You are the God who does wonders;
    You have declared Your strength among the peoples.
    15 You have with Your arm redeemed Your people,
    The sons of Jacob and Joseph. Selah
    16 The waters saw You, O God;
    The waters saw You, they were afraid;
    The depths also trembled.
    17 The clouds poured out water;
    The skies sent out a sound;
    Your arrows also flashed about.
    18 The voice of Your thunder was in the whirlwind;
    The lightnings lit up the world;
    The earth trembled and shook.
    19 Your way was in the sea,
    Your path in the great waters,
    And Your footsteps were not known.
    20 You led Your people like a flock
    By the hand of Moses and Aaron.

  100. Hi Cho Family,

    It has always been a great joy to see your children when I am in the childrens ministry. I've leaned into the below verse many times during trials. I hope it brings you some comfort. See you soon!

    Joshua 1:9
    9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

  101. Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a ligth unto my path. Psalm 119.
    Kim, Peter, Caleb, Timothy, and Selah- I have been praying for you since I received the news, and each time I pray I hear those words. I know that these are difficult times and there will be many ups and downs and decisions to be made as you navigate your way through. Know that God shines sufficient ligth to show you where to place your next step but no more. The lamp of Gods word ensures that you are walking along a sure path. He is with you every step of the way and guiding you through. Kim, of all the people I have ever known, I always think of the fruit of the spirit when I think of, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfullness, gentleness, and self-control. God created you with an abundance of all of these atributes-use all of these in the days ahead. Know that you are loved by Him and by many, many others. Our family will pray for your family every day.
    Sister in Christ, Pamela

  102. Psalm 91
    Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty...I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust."...He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday...

    Peter and Kim...with tears...when I think about what you are both enduring as well as the joys and strength you have received from God through various ways...simple phrases that are used so commonly like, "trusting in God" or "have faith in God" has taken on such a different meaning and has weighed more heavily on my heart these days. this passage along with many other verses that many have shared already...i feel like i am seeing through new eyes as i try to see them as you would see them. I am so so incredibly blessed by the both of you as you go through this is just so beautiful to see your love for each other, the love of the church, and the GREAT LOVE of our Father in heaven. Will be praying...

  103. Hello Kim and Peter,
    With the Christmas season that has just passed, I took time to read the Gospel of Luke and two passages made me pause and they spoke to me at the time. They also came to mind when you asked for verses...
    And coming to Mary, Gabriel said, "Hail favored one! The Lord is with you." Luke 1: 28
    Each of us is formed with God's grace and the Lord lives in each of us through the Holy Spirit. God is with you right now...

    Then the angel said to her, "Do not be afraid...." Luke 1:30
    I read and re-read those words many times. "Do not be afraid."

    We are praying for you and hope that you can feel all the love surrounding you like a hug of comfort and support!
    Love to you all,
    Miss Jeanne

  104. Isaiah 43:1-2

    But now, this is what the LORD says- he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."

    Dear Kim- know that many of us are fighting the battle with you in prayer. You are very much loved and cherished by us and our Savior! God's holding your in the palm of his hands and I trust in His good purpose.


  105. Hi Kim and Peter,

    I do not know either of you but very recently I faced a similar situation where I thought I may lose my wife. In my darkest moment of despair and anguish the Lord spoke to me through these verses. It does not contain the hope for a miracle I so desperately wished for but these words breathed new life into me and sustains me to this day. We are praying for you.

    35 Therefore, do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. 36 For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised.


    39 But we are not of those who shrink back to destruction, but of those who have faith to the preserving of the soul.

    Hebrews 10:35-39 (NASB)

  106. 2 Corinthians 1:3-5

    3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5 For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.

    Peter and Kim,

    We draw inspiration and great comfort from this Scripture. It amazes us that the purpose of God's comfort to us does not end with our praise and thanks to God, but that it actually is intended to comfort others as well.

    We earnestly pray for you and your family that God will provide His comfort, strength, and healing. We also pray that He continuously uses this difficult situation to glorify His name and provide inspiration to His church.

    With love,
    Dan and Jane

  107. Kim and Peter,

    Thanks for sharing as you walk through this season. I pray that the Lord continue to strengthen you and keep you day by day, and that you know his steadfast love and mercy in a new way.

    Praying Psalm 27 and Psalm 34 for you!

    "I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed. This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him and saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and delivers them." (Psalm 34:4-7 ESV)

  108. "22 And he arose that night and took his two wives, his two female servants, and his eleven sons, and crossed over the ford of Jabbok. 23 He took them, sent them over the brook, and sent over what he had. 24 Then Jacob was left alone; and a Man wrestled with him until the breaking of day. 25 Now when He saw that He did not prevail against him, He touched the socket of his hip; and the socket of Jacob’s hip was out of joint as He wrestled with him. 26 And He said, “Let Me go, for the day breaks.”
    But he said, “I will not let You go unless You bless me!”
    27 So He said to him, “What is your name?”
    He said, “Jacob.”
    28 And He said, “Your name shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel; for you have struggled with God and with men, and have prevailed.”
    29 Then Jacob asked, saying, “Tell me Your name, I pray.”
    And He said, “Why is it that you ask about My name?” And He blessed him there.
    30 So Jacob called the name of the place Peniel: “For I have seen God face to face, and my life is preserved.” 31 Just as he crossed over Penuel the sun rose on him, and he limped on his hip. 32 Therefore to this day the children of Israel do not eat the muscle that shrank, which is on the hip socket, because He touched the socket of Jacob’s hip in the muscle that shrank." - Gen 32:22-32

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  110. 2 for you:
    Habakkuk 1:5
    Look among the nations, and see;
    wonder and be astounded.
    For I am doing a work in your days
    that you would not believe if told.

    Remember that God's writing this story and this story isn't over until God's work has been accomplished.

    Psalm 4:6-7 (all of Psalm 4 is fantastic)
    6 There are many who say, “Who will show us some good?
    Lift up the light of your face upon us, O Lord!”
    7 You have put more joy in my heart
    than they have when their grain and wine abound

    While hard to remember in the midst of the pain, remember that your joy and reward is imperishable.

    Like Simon Peter on the water, keep your eyes on the Lord and off the wind.

    Love you guys.

  111. Dear Kim and Peter,

    The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save, He will take great delight in you. He will quiet you with His love and He will rejoice over you with singing. —Zephaniah 3:17

    He loves you so much that He has a special "Kim" song that He sings every time He thinks of you... May the knowledge of His great love for you quiet and strengthen your spirit. Rest in His strong and loving presence.

  112. I re-read a passage yesterday, that has been encouraging me and continually reminding me of His amazing love and I wanted to share with you all...

    James 1:2-4

    2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

    We love you Kim and Peter...May you continue to fight the good fight and may He finish in you what He has started!!!

  113. "But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I WAIT for God my Savior, MY GOD WILL HEAR ME"
    Micah 7:7

    Kimberly and Peter,

    Our whole family (even Seylah) is praying faithfully for you and your entire family! We are so thankful for your blog and the ability to stay prayerfully connected. We are so deeply encouraged and so moved to be on our knees for you everyday. We are confident in God faithfulness to hear and answer our prayers in His perfect timing.

  114. "35 Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty. 36 But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe. 37 All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. 38 For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. 39 And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. 40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.” - John 6:35-40

  115. Craig &amp; Jenny SaltzmanJanuary 17, 2012 at 7:01 AM

    John 14:16-17 "And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever - the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you."

  116. Peter &amp; Eun Hae MinJanuary 17, 2012 at 9:00 AM

    Philippians 4:12-13 (ESV)
    12 I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. 13 I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

    "When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
    When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
    When the funds are low and the debts are high
    And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
    When care is pressing you down a bit,
    Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
    Life is queer with its twists and turns,
    As every one of us sometimes learns,
    And many a failure turns about
    When he might have won had he stuck it out;
    Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
    You may succeed with another blow,
    Success is failure turned inside out--
    The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
    And you never can tell how close you are,
    It may be near when it seems so far;
    So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
    It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."
    -author unknown

    Thank you both for your testimony. With every entry, we are so encouraged and compelled to our knees. Praying!

  117. Peter and Kim; We are keeping you in thought and prayer at First United Methodist Church in Palatine.
    Psalm 55
    "16 As for me, I will call upon God, And the LORD shall save me.
    17 Evening and morning and at noon
    I will pray, and cry aloud,
    And He shall hear my voice
    18 He has redeemed my soul in peace from the battle that was against me."
    With you in prayers, Cynthia Busch

  118. "O Lord, you are the portion of my inheritance and my cup; you maintain my lot. The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; yes, I have a good inheritance." PSALM 16:5,6.

    From the hymn, "God Moves in a Mysterious Way" by William Cowper

    Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take;
    The clouds ye so much dread
    Are big with mercy and shall break
    In blessings on your head.
    Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
    But trust Him for His grace;
    Behind a frowning providence
    He hides a smiling face.

    You two are such an encouragement to us, through all this. Our whole family is praying for you guys!

    Love from Georgia,
    David, Sonia, Sophia & Derek

  119. "People swear by someone greater than themselves, and the oath confirms what is said and puts an end to all argument. Because God wanted to make the unchanging nature of his purpose very clear to the heirs of what was promised, he confirmed it with an oath. God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope set before us may be greatly encouraged. We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where our forerunner, Jesus, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek." - Heb 6:16-20

  120. As you come to him, the living Stone—rejected by humans but chosen by God and precious to him— 5 you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house[a] to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. 6 For in Scripture it says:
    “See, I lay a stone in Zion, a chosen and precious cornerstone, and the one who trusts in him will never be put to shame.”
    7 Now to you who believe, this stone is precious. But to those who do not believe,
    “The stone the builders rejected
    has become the cornerstone,”
    8 and,
    “A stone that causes people to stumble
    and a rock that makes them fall.”
    They stumble because they disobey the message—which is also what they were destined for.
    But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 10 Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy. - 1 Pet2:4-9

  121. But when Christ came as high priest of the good things that are now already here, he went through the greater and more perfect tabernacle that is not made with human hands, that is to say, is not a part of this creation. 12 He did not enter by means of the blood of goats and calves; but he entered the Most Holy Place once for all by his own blood, thus obtaining eternal redemption. 13 The blood of goats and bulls and the ashes of a heifer sprinkled on those who are ceremonially unclean sanctify them so that they are outwardly clean. 14 How much more, then, will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself unblemished to God, cleanse our consciences from acts that lead to death, so that we may serve the living God!
    15 For this reason Christ is the mediator of a new covenant, that those who are called may receive the promised eternal inheritance—now that he has died as a ransom to set them free from the sins committed under the first covenant. - Heb 9:11-15

  122. Someone might have posted this already, but it's one of my favorite songs that always helps me to look at God. And it's old school :D

    For I know my redeemer lives
    And in the end He will stand on the earth
    For I know my redeemer lives
    And in the end He will reign on the earth

    Though my flesh it be destroyed
    Yet with my eyes I will see God

    For I know my redeemer lives
    And I will stand with Him on that day
    For I know my redeemer lives
    And I will stand with Him on that day

    Oh my heart it yearns within me
    For the day when Jesus returns
    Oh my heart it yearns within me
    For the day when Jesus shall reign

    Though my flesh it be destroyed
    Yet with my eyes I will see God

    For I know that my redeemer lives
    And I will stand with Him on that day
    For I know that my redeemer lives
    And I will stand with Him on that day

  123. The Acierto FamilyFebruary 2, 2012 at 3:21 PM

    Revelation 21:5
    He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!”

    God bless you from His glorious riches in Christ Jesus. We're fighting in prayer with you.

    The Acierto Family

  124. Proverbs 25:4 "Take away the dross from the silver, and the smith has material for a vessel."

    This verse keeps me focused when I want to be taken out of the fire. It reminds me that it'll all be worth it... and that one day the refining will be complete. He's using you and your family as His vessel SO MIGHTILY through this. Hang in there. Praying hard for you.

  125. So, it's taken me awhile to post this comment...and it was only because of your latest blog that I'm feeling compelled to do so. I'm a pretty private person and not one to share much, especially when I know it is available for public consumption. Ever since you made the original call to share our favorite verse, I've been struggling to post it only because I knew I'd need to provide some context as to why it's my favorite. And to go back to that time is still difficult for me after 15 years. My mother was my best friend and she passed away 15 years ago quite unexpectedly. At the time, I was in my early 20s and very angry that God had taken her away so abruptly and without warning. I was reeling in grief and the deepest sadness I had ever experienced. I started to read my mom's Bible and there weren't a lot of comments throughout, but when I got to 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, it was highlighted. For me, it was as if she gave me that verse during a time when I felt only despair and was in danger of self-pity.
    1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
    Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
    So now I want to give it to you. Not that we're comparing apples to apples, and there's no way I could ever relate to what you're currently experiencing, but we have all known times of darkness and this is what helped me pull through.
    Much love to you and I continue to pray for you everyday.
    Julia & the Libke family